Spiritual Gaslighting: What it is and How to Recognize it

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Over the past several years, I’ve had a very illuminating and direct experience with something I call "Spiritual Gaslighting".

 

What does that mean exactly?

Someone using spiritual concepts to manipulate another into questioning his/her own sanity, truth, or perception.

 

How does this happen?

Well, spiritual framing and spiritual “seeing” can be used, just like any other content,  to cover up, bypass, and project out old wounds that aren’t being addressed (loved).

 

If someone isn’t really taking responsibility for their pain, their frozen places, their wounds - they can actually use spiritual knowledge to try to manipulate, make others wrong, and totally distort the truth (even flat out lie) with sparkly spiritual wording.

Basically, their pain body utilizes spiritual material to deflect and protect itself.

 

 

I get it, who the hell wants to dive deep into pain?

 but that’s where the willingness and self responsibility comes in.

 that’s where the medicine is.

 

 

It can be a tricky space to speak into, as the spiritual ego is very invested in and convicted of its righteousness in order to protect itself. This can be an elusive blind spot, since it’s seemingly “enlightened” and follows some sort of logic.

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The trouble is that this sort of manipulation aims to discredit the other’s  sovereign connection and inner knowing, and harbors on that person’s  vulnerable healing journey.

 

 

For example, a woman new to a yoga school has an experience with a male yoga teacher that felt very violating and not in full consent. She talks to the teacher to let him know about her experience and what didn’t feel good.

The teacher responds,

 
“Oh, you are just early on the path. This is your trust wound and resistance to the divine masculine coming up. I’m getting the guidance from spirit that you need to do some deep work on this part of yourself.”
 

In this scenario, the tantra teacher is using spiritual and psychological concepts to deflect a place within him that was out of integrity, and with doing so, placed the blame on the student to internalize.

 

This can happen easily in the teacher / student relationship as the student is already in a place of putting the other as “knowing more”, but this can also happen in a romantic relationship or friendship.

 

 

My personal experience with Spiritual Gaslighting was a huge (HUGE) cornerstone of my empowerment. Where before I would second guess, doubt, and abandon my truth in the face of someone else’s spiritual talk, I now feel very rooted in my truth and my own unique, personal connection to source. This is a MASSIVE gift to my life. A fire I had to walk through. 

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Here are some signs that someone is using a spiritual lens to avoid their own pain and project it out:

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  • Strong victim mentality

  • Very little to zero self responsibility

  • Big emphasis on what “spirit says” as opposed to sharing from their personal truth, feelings, experience

  • Refusal to accept or even hear another’s truth, choices, or experience

  • Rationalizing the cause of their circumstance as being from other people’s spiritual inadequacy

  • A repeating history of very similar painful situations in their lives

  • Leaking out their shadow aspect by “Villian-izing” others

 

 

Spiritual Gaslighting is an example of why it is so important to trust yourself and cultivate a strong connection to your own truth and spirituality.

 

 

Yes, let's welcome insights, reflections, and guidance from others, but we need to be discerning of where the guidance is coming from and if it empowers or disempower us.

  

If you recognize a situation where this is happening, breathe deep and reconnect to your inner knowing. Being on the receiving end of such gaslighting can be an incredible entry point to your own blockages, inner pain, and tendency to outsource our power. Welcome these personal growth edges with as much grace and self love you can muster. 

 

May we all cultivate the devotion and willingness to look within and feel our pain. To listen deeply and take self responsibility. Even when it’s hard. Even when it's inconvenient.

 

May we hold a torch of fierce love and compassion for the places that we or others have yet to do this. 

 

 

When the Walls go Up: What to do When You Get Defended

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You start off with good intentions.

Somewhere in your exchange, things get a little heated.

That one comment SETS. YOU. OFF.

 

Your whole body tenses up and contracts, especially around your chest. Your whole system goes into attack mode. Any comment or remark your partner shares is now fuel and ammunition for you to prove him/her wrong.

 

Before you know it, this sweet intentioned conversation has turned into a battle where you are determined to come out on top. No surrender, no treaties. Victory.

 

You’re both pushing each other away with walls around your heart. And, if you let it go on long enough, you both end up with hurt feelings and tightly crossed arms.

 

Nothing “productive” or connection building comes from of this way of relating. In a weird way, it can be momentarily satisfying, but ultimately; it just totally sucks. It cuts you both off from a heartfelt exchange, empathy, and the crucible to intimacy: vulnerability.

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This battlefield conversation is not exactly the open safe space for either of you to share the tender places inside. It can also be so painful to want to be close, but feel far from it.

 

 

 

Even with good intentions, defenses and walls can be up in full effect. It’s a super common phenomena, one that most couples bump into from time to time. You’re both humans, of course you will disagree and get triggered from time to time. Totally okay.

 

Our defenses aren’t total villains though. They developed at some point in your life to prevent you from getting hurt and keep you safe. This was usually sometime in childhood when you were rather powerless. And at that time, the defense mechanism worked brilliantly.

 

This trouble is, we keep applying the same method to prevent hurt even when it doesn’t still apply. Not only that, it doesn’t really work anymore. And on top of that, it is preventing you from what you really want: true closeness with your partner.

 

The work, then, is to soothe the scared part of yourself, and discover what you need in the present moment to feel safe to move forward in a loving, open way.

 

 

Here are the best ways I’ve found to do just that:

 

1. Recognize that you or your partner is defended

 

This is super crucial because you can’t become undefended until you realize that you are defended. The earlier you notice it the better. The body sensations are usually the first things to note: tightness in the chest, constricted belly, numbness or cut off sensation from the pelvis down, clenched jaw, and a buzzing feeling in your head are some common ones

 

Some other telling areas to tune into:

  • The tone of your voice
  • Body posture (arms crossed? Turned away from partner?)
  • Listening Ability (are you actually hearing what your partner says, or just patiently waiting for your turn to lay it down?)

 

The more you practice this, you catch the more subtle and refined cues that are unique to you.

 

2. Name it Out loud.

 

Once you recognize the walls are up, share to your partner. Something like, “Whoa, I just noticed I’m really defended right now.” If you are feeling open, but start to notice your partner's walls come up, find a sweet, soft, kind (and non condescending) way to acknowledge it.

This can be delicate, since you don’t want to make your partner feel wrong. That’s a recipe for more defensiveness.

Something like, “Hey baby, it feels like this conversation is getting heated and it’s harder for me to really feel you.  Do you feel defended toward me? ” It helps to have talked about this phenomena before you are in the heat of the moment, so your partner can register what you are speaking to. It super helps if you both have agreed to take responsibility for the ways you communicate in your relationship.

Naming the walls brings it from the unspoken invisible tension and into the tangible. Now you can work with it.

 

3. Take space

 

Generally, since our defense mechanisms have powerful and enticing momentum, it requires some sort of space to interrupt the pattern.

 

This can look in several different ways and will vary based on your own preferences and what is needed in the moment. Taking literal space is an option. Go into separate rooms for a few minutes or take a walk. Taking a big pause in the conversation while you sit side by side can also be an option. They key is come back into your own energy field, and do some inner work.

If you are feeling very activated with a lot of charge moving through you, a walk or some movement can be supremely helpful.

 

An important part of this is that you orient your partner what you are doing so they don’t feel in the dark or abandoned by your taking space. There’s a big difference in storming out of the room without saying a word, and saying, “Hey babe, I’m going to take some space in the living room to calm down. I’ll be back in 10 minutes. I’m still with you. This convo is important, I just need to take care of myself for a sec so I can be more present/kind/actually hear you.”

 

4. Feel & Inquire

 

While you are taking space, feel the feels and inquire within.

Not quite sure how to do that? Read my post on how to actually feel your feelings HERE.

Take big deep breaths and ask yourself, “What am I protecting?” Our walls serve this purpose of protection, so inquiring like this takes us to the root of what we are scared of or where we aren’t feeling seen, heard, or acknowledged. Examining the moment that originally set you off can hold some clues.


 

5. What do you need?

 

Ask yourself, “What do I need right now?” Specifically what does the scared part of you need to feel safe and open.  Ask sincerely and listen for what arises.

 

This could be something you can give yourself in that moment, and also some ingredient that could be brought into the conversation. This could also be a variety of things like acknowledgement, a good cry, gentleness, being heard, seen, or held.  Watch out for the tendency to put it all on the other, and see what you can source for yourself. Both are usually helpful and present.

 

6.Come back together

 

Once you feel like a little more resourced, clear, and calm, come back together with your partner. If you are doing your inner work, and still feel a bit too heated to continue the conversation, come back to your partner to let them know this. There’s nothing wrong with bookmarking.

 

If you do feel ready to reconvene,  it’s is a good time to apologize that things got so contracted. Make eye contact, maybe even hold hands for a moment to connect. Next, share any insights and make requests for the rest of the conversation. Trying your damnedest to stick to your experience and avoid  punishing or “making wrong” sort of requests.

 

Lean in and share what is tender and scared inside of you. Most partners, when you share the core vulnerable part, can have empathy; It’s the shutting out that is painful.

 

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If you are feeling a sense of defended-ness over a longer span of time, not just a single heated convo, be sure to let your partner know where you are in your process, even if you don’t understand it yet.

 

The simple communication of “Hey babe, I know I’ve been really defensive recently, and it doesn’t feel good. I don’t totally understand why, but I’m doing my best to work on it and get to an open place again.”  This let’s your partner in on your process instead of keeping them in the dark. It creates a sense of being on the same team together.

 

This process can take time to master, but any step in this direction can make a world of a difference! Remember that communication, orientation, and self sourcing are the keys for letting the walls come down. Lean into vulnerability and be amazed at the rate in which you and your boo find yourself again in a yummy heart space.

 

6 Steps to Work with Emotions so They Don't Hijack Your Life

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Emotions are a normal part of being human; A normal part of life. There’s nothing wrong with you for having them, any of ‘em.  

 

And in my opinion, not only are emotions are a supremely normal part of life, they are also gifts along our path. Emotions, especially ones that are finally rising to the surface, can be bread crumbs to the old hurt parts of ourselves that need some good, good lovin’.  

 

Despite this though, feelings can be really freakin’ uncomfortable, annoying, painful, and confusing. Especially those heavy hitters -  anger, shame, jealousy, unworthiness.

 

It’s no wonder we stuff them down, get lost in them, avoid them. It seems many of us either get swept away in their currents or ignore them like a VERY unwelcome visitor. If we act like they aren’t knocking at the door, maybe they will just get the picture and go away. Either of those options, being consumed by or avoiding feelings, make it so emotions hijack our life, our choices, and our state of being.

 

The truth is, feelings are meant to be FELT. Emotions are energy in motion.

 

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The more we block them, the longer they stay in our bodies, the greater grip they have on us. The more we create stories about ourselves for having said emotions, the more we resist or over identify.

 

So, how can you work with emotions in a way that actually serves you?

 

Here are my foundational steps that I share with all my clients.

 

1. Recognize that you are experiencing an emotion

 

Sounds obvious, but we can be in an emotional state and not even realize it. We can get all tangled up, charged, and collapsed before we know it. Sometimes we shut down the emotion so quickly that it doesn't register. And sometimes, we let it consume us so fully that it feels intrinsic to who we are.

 

The key is cultivating the awareness to notice the sensation and signature of being in an emotional state. From there, notice which emotion (or emotions) are present for you. Keep in mind there are no “good” or “bad” emotions. Get curious.

 

2. Say to yourself  “I’m feeling.......”

 

Naming the emotion helps you recognize it, and not over identify with it. It normalizes and supports the next step. Be sure to avoid the phrase, “I AM _____”. You aren’t the emotion , you are having it, experiencing a wave of the emotion.


 

3. identify the exact sensation of the emotion

 

Every emotion creates certain sensations in the body. Identifying the sensation of the emotion and where it is happening in your body is the first step of actually feeling the feeling. Some examples include: tightness, tingling, numbness, heaviness, restriction, ache, openness, etc. This helps you get out of your head, into your body, and in direct contact with the emotion itself.

 

4. Breathe deep +  Feel the feeling (as much as you can)

 

When you purely feel an emotion (even if just for 30 seconds), it allows it move. It changes shape. Sounds obvious, “duh of course you feel a feeling.” But actually, feeling is different than *thinking* about the feeling. Very different. This is the key, so I’ll say it again. Feel the feeling.

 

For example, with sadness, you may notice a sinking and heavy sensation on your chest. Take a couple breaths and, as much as you can, actually feel the heaviness, the weight on your chest.

 

It can be helpful to lay down, close your eyes, and touch the part of your body with the most sensation and charge. Welcome in just a millimeter more of willingness. A second more of the sensation.

 

Of course some emotions are easier to feel than others, but truly, the greatest pain lies in our resistance to it. Once you actually feel the sensation, it doesn’t last that long.

 

Now, some feelings have layers and can take more than one moment to wash through. Some have deeper roots than others. Be patient with yourself, and know that any small amount of feeling serves the process. This is where courage comes in. All easier said that done, but trust me, it's so worth it. 

 

If you notice a huge amount of resistance to feeling, if it feels really huge, big, or scary, this is a great time to call in support. Have a friend hold space for you or bring it to your next coaching session. The knowledge that someone is actively loving & supporting you in the process can make a BIG difference. And if a trusted human isn’t close by, tune into the earth that is always holding you. Remind yourself: “It is safe to feel this.”


 

5. Ask yourself: “What do I need right now?”

 

After you’ve felt as long as you can muster, or you feel an organic settling or shift in sensation, ask the tender part of your being what it needs. Be open to what answer you receive. Generally the answer involves the next step for you to move the energy or get grounded.

 

For example, emotions with a lot of charge and energy, like anger, need motion in the body to move through. Maybe it’s screaming into a pillow, jumping up and down, or growling. Sometimes what is needed is your gentle touch, internal mothering, or some action in the future (Like having an important conversation, setting a boundary, etc.) Ask and go for it.

 

6.  Switch channels

 

Find a gentle way to transition out of all the feels. Ground and reconnect to the present moment; your surroundings, your breath, your feet. Acknowledge yourself for doing this powerful work.

 

Once you feel grounded, switch channels. Do something totally different - get outside, watch your fave cat video, meet up with the friend, or make some nourishing food.

 

Switching channels is an important part of integration because we each have an organic capacity or threshold for emotional processing. If you override it, you can actually start to indulge the hurt place and get in an emotional collapse.  Listen for your natural capacity point, and trust the unfolding process. If there is more to be felt, there will be other opportunities to do so.


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As you learn to work with your emotions in new ways, you will discover a whole new relationship to life and yourself.

 

There is potent healing and empowerment that comes when we lean in and face our feelings with an open, willing, courageous heart!  Remember to stay gentle with yourself, especially if you notice judgements arise.

 

Feelings are simply feelings - not indicators of your worth, value, goodness, or badness.

 

Breathe deep, dive in, and experience the full spectrum of your gorgeous self.